Sun Child.

I can't help but to be a child of the sun.

I can fall in love with the heat that is being emanated onto my pale, dry winter skin.

I am Immersed in it, It surrounds me. 

All I can do is soak up its life giving light. I can feel its energy flow into me. How selfless is that, giving up its life source to me?

I may be a sun child but I live by the moon.

There is no rest on these warm nights, there is a different world out when its dark.

The silence of the streets, the only thing I can hear are the thoughts dancing in my head. 

The look of the smile on your face when we name the constellations is my favorite smile of yours.

We're lost in those stars. While everyone sleeps it feels like those stars and that moon, that magnificent moon, they are ours for that night. We don't have to share them with anyone.  

The light of the night makes you face pale and beautiful. You are beautiful. 

There is no such thing as time in this place. 

-S.B.

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This is supposed to be a metaphor.

-S.B.

"It gets better with time."

You're a mess.


...This may be a fix for your broken pieces for just a short while, but the tears and the struggles will, and always do, break them again. 

I wish I understood how your molecules worked.


I 
  wish                                   
I
 Could 

     Fix 

                You.   

Watching you is like watching the caged animals in a zoo. You are beautiful but you aren't free. No one on the outside sees you ache for more. 

Its not worth it, we both know that. 

Your demons are the cruelest demons.  

Different.

A.M. I. "different" N.O.W?

P.L.E.A.S.E. T.E.L.L. I.'.M "different"

My apologies.

I feel like I need to apologize for a few things to a few people. Clear some things up.

I'm sorry that I am the friend who left you behind. I couldn't handle your out look on things anymore, I felt like you relied on me to much, to lift you up. You were full of self loathing. It made me tired and it was the best decision for me but I know that I hurt you and I am so sorry for that.

I am sorry that you feel like I don't want to be involved in your life. I think we have both forgot that I am not 6 years old anymore. I need you in my life but just in a different way now. I am in a good place and I have a life here. I'm sorry I don't call you more often.

I'm sorry that I'm not a better person for you. You're the greatest and I'm worried you are just settling. You mean so much to me and I'm sorry that I don't let you know that more than I have.

I am so sorry that I wasn't with you. I'm sorry that I didn't call more often or drive to see you more often. It was so hard for me to see you like that but that's not an excuse. This is killing me. I wish I could have talked for you. I know that if you were here, you wouldn't even be mad at me. I didn't deserve someone so amazing, but I'm glad I had you.

L.O.V.E

Don't ask me about love because I don't know how to explain it. I know what it is, I can feel it, but its like explaining how water tastes. You just know.

Wishful thinking.

I need someone who is okay with my silence. 

Change is.

Why do people change? Why do we grow apart from the ones we used to love so much? Why do we make up excuses to not see someone we enjoy spending time with? I am at fault of doing all of these things right now. I guess so much has changed in my life so rapidly in the past year that I don't know to keep or I don't want things to be constant. I keep look for change and inconstant things, But what I really want is for things to go back to how they were before. I never knew that life could be so hard, so young. Things get better with time, or at least that's what were told. I have a lot of time left for things to be figured out and for my wounds to heal, I just have to be patient and trust that everything happens for a reason and that everything will be okay in the end. Pray for the best and know how blessed you are. 

Words. (pt 1)

"Forgive me
if I make you
everything
for I
know not how
to love in halves." 
-Tyler Knott Gregson





>>>>("Word" posts are quotes that mean something to me.)